That day you drank too much alcoholic drink, that's why you
can't think properly.
Alcohol and Psychology
To understand what had happened, you must first understand the
basic effects on alcohol.
Basically there are afew states which you can reach based on
different level of alcohol in blood concentration. Euphoria,
Lethargy, Confusion, Stupor, Coma, Death.
Based on what you've said, I infer that your alcohol level in blood
is quite high. Based on what you've said, you seems to be fall on
the state of confusion.
The state of confusion incoporate these 3 general
characteristic.
1. Profound confusion uncertain where
they are or what they are doing. Dizziness and staggering
occur.
2. Heightened emotional state aggressive, withdrawn, or
overly affectionate. Vision,
speech, and awareness are impaired.
3. Poor coordination and pain response. Nausea and vomiting often
occur.
The high concentration of alcohol is your blood cause you to have
hightened emotional state, like overly affectionate. Of course you
know what you are doing at that point of time.
See, just the effect of alcohol is enough to cause a lot of
trouble.
Next is psychology.
Psychology also plays a major role in this unfortunate event. Your
emotional state at that day was Anger, Happy, Disappoint and Sad.
It all stated at the shop when your Mother-In-Law opposed your
decision. It's made worst when your future husband shouted at you
infront of so many people. By then, you are experiencing an
overflow of emotional signals.
You are very very unhappy at that time, and naturally you need to
confide to someone. You poured out all your feelings to your
manager, and that when you feel alittle better.
Because you wanted to forget all the unhappy things, you
subconsciously wanted to drown your sorrow with alcohol. And the
more you drink the more you feel better, but that's temporarily.
Soon you lose your ability to think.
These are the two major factor that contributes to what happened
that day.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Effects_of_alcohol_on_the_body#Effects_by_dose
Analysing the manager
And this so called 'nice and helpful' is actually a wolf in sheep's
clothing. He told advantage of you when you are drunk and couldn't
think properly at that time. He know that when you are drunk, your
psychological defence at that point is the weakest. That's why he
got himself a golden chance to ahem you.
This kind of person is definitely a hypocrite. He said that he will
take responsibility of what had happened, I believe this is untrue
and bull5hit. Imagine if he can be so unfaithful to his current
family, I guess his integrity are highly questionable.
If he is a genuinely good person, he will definitely reject the sex
and other actions as well. He is capitalizing the from the fact
that your are unable to think critically and incoherent.
A fact IS a fact
Since this has already happened, I think we should not dwell in the
past. Now the most important thing is to devise a solution to this
problem. I have to leave this for you.
Death is not the best solution always. Some may say that Death is a
solution to solve all problems, but I have to disagree with this.
Imagine what happened when you committed suicide. Your families and
friends will be very sad! Other things might also happen, too many
things you know.
Although I doesn't know what's your religion, but I believe almost
all religioin have a chapter regarding about death and
sucide.
Lesson learnt
After this incident, I am sure you've learnt many precious lesson
in life. Remember, you must learnt from your lesson and never never
make the same mistake again next time.
Present
What's most important now is afew urgent issues. To check whether
you are pregnant or not, go to see a gynecologist. Don't rely on
those test kit, because they are not 100% accurate.
Then you should go to hospital to check for Sexually Transmitted
Dieseas and HIVs. You'll never know what disease that old man got
in him.
