Fiacla,
u are not the worst, there are people out there who lives on street
and eat leftover foods everyday...since they have the courage to
live on, y not u? Thinking too much will only leads to more
depression. Even if u dun have gf forever (which is unlikely), u
still have sgforum...
Like i said, want gf be proactive. build up urself, earn more
money, groom urself, go for more outing (even if u are not sociable
kind, just go)
Gd luck 
