Lets see, when I was in Secondary School, when I saw my friends
got themselves a girlfriend, I will feel really jealous and bitter
inside, why couldn't it be me instead? Then there was a girl way
back in Secondary, that I really really liked, but I never had the
courage to do anything, only after we graduated, I started to SMS
her, but she would never agree to go out. I even went to the point
of waiting outside her house, and sending her threatening Emails.
Ya, I feel pretty bad. It wasn't until her mother complained to my
mother that I stopped, but if it wasn't for the law, I guess I
would have raped her already. However, I still don't really
understand how she got my mother's number. 
Well, that was over 1 year ago, since then I deleted her and
everybody close to her from my MSN, and I even stopped logging in
to my Friendster. I tried to avoid everything about her. But...
that is not the point of these topic.
I am 19 this year, going to N.S tomorrow. So I reflected on myself.
I haven't got a girlfriend before, unless you count the girl way
back in Kindergarten...
But nowadays I don't seem to really care. In my Polytechnic Days, I
am pretty sure that was 2 girls after me.
The first one I didn't like at all. She kept asking me to help her
and stuff, and gave excuses to treat me or gave me kisses over MSN
for helping her. But constantly ignored her, and she got a
boyfriend now anyway.
As for the second one, well, just to say I didn't like her enough.
It was during attachment period, when she claimed she was waiting
for my friend in the toilet, but the truth is my friend left a long
time ago. She was obviously waiting for me since everyone had
already left.
But putting those aside, I find that all of friends are constantly
looking for new targets and stuff. While I don't seem to have any
interest at all, I would rather, or in fact I already planned out
that for the next 2 years, every weekend when I book out from camp,
I would stay at home and build my model kits ( I have like a few
dozens to finish building. ) Yep, I am a toy collector. I rather
stay at home to admire my toys, or go out to buy new toys or just
watch some anime. I seldom go out, except to buy toys or if there's
a movie that interest me. I don't even like the company of
friends.
Am I weird?
