hi, thanks for all the advice, was really eye-opening... i think
i should follow some of them, like being more proactive and asking
pple to go for lunch, outings, etc, and talking to pple sitting
next to me... and i should probably stop going around with a sad
face, cos it makes pple think that i don't wanna talk to anybody
also i hould call up old
friends, esp those who are in the same course. (sorry, i'm not in
computing, i'm in engin... maybe that's why i'm so lonely, cos it's
mostly guys... when i was in sec sch it was an all girls sch, and
in jc my (few) buddies were all girls... i've never really been
close friends with guys... hmm, maybe that's what i meant when i
said that i feel like an alien)
but i dunno about some of the other suggestions, like joining hall
and more clubs and societies... cos when i joined my current cca,
it wasn't just out of interest, but also to meet pple, but now it
feels like pple are leaving me out... and about hall, it's possible
to join hall and still be lonely, just look at that Cho fellow..
(and pls dun worry, i'd never even think of pulling off a stunt
like that. 
) but apparently he stayed on
campus and even shared a room with pple, yet he was so isolated...
i think in the end it's really me that needs to change my
behaviours, otherwise no matter how many halls, clubs or societies
i join, pple will still be leaving me out... and speaking of Cho,
when i heard about the sort of person that he was and how isolated
from others he was, it dawned on me that i'm also lonesome like
him... just not twisted and psycho, but definitely isolated,
especially in nus... ok lah, i'm not as bad as that, as in when ppl
talk to me i do try to smile and be friendly, but they're all the
"hi and bye" type like some of you said... and yeah,in uni, it's
normal to have lots of "hi and bye" friends like some have said,
but at the moment all of the pple that are talk to are that type,
and there aren't any close friends...zero 
I
can't remember the last time i ate lunch with other pple, but i
remember thinking that lunch is so much nicer with company, and
that i really took for granted all those regular lunch buddies from
sec sch and jc...
and yep, being lonely is possibly a good thing, i'd have more time
to concentrate on my studies, but now we're having vacation, and
it's really been plaguing my thoughts... and the Cho thing also
scares me; i dun wanna be like that
maybe i'm just thinking too much since it's the holidays, maybe
it's part of being an adult like somebody said... being
lonely..sorry if i sounded immature/ low self-esteem that day; was
crying and not thinking properly... i'm not sure what to do now; on
the one hand i could try to keep occupied with sch/work and just
forget about this; on the other hand if i ignore this problem then
possibly nothing will change, and i'll grow old all alone and i'll
die with noone at my funeral... 
