To TS,
are you unhappy with your life?
you probably be just upset with the way, things are going for
you?
if you are in depression,
there are two form of depression,
short term
and long term

have you taken prozac before?

if you are in depression, you wouldn't seek help at all, because
you are in self denial, and you probably think that the world is
going against you, and think that nobody can help you
and the reason why i said that is, i am in depression before.
for your case, you just need to wake up from your idea, and face
the music
you are just another frustrated person.....
if you are in depression, you probably won't think about anything
at all
i personally seen two shrink and a saf consultant
you HAVE no idea what depression is
sorry that if i been blunt