I discovered that most things don't interest me anymore. Am
doing most things on a routine robotic-like feel; doing for the
sake of doing.
I don't really like most things.
Hence I am still searching. Be it something or that special
lady.
Eg. One is supposed to attend all occasions/gatherings in a
happy-go-lucky mood. Now, I choose. Most of the time, it's a no-no,
for everyone & everything doesn't interest me. & if I do
really attend, I put on a "mask" entertaining- which is very very
tiring.
People can sense me then. Despite it all, I chose to care for
myself, rather than think about what others feel/think about
me.
It's pretty scary when I'm not dying yet, but with a long way to
go.
I'd a job. I do sports. I stay with my family. I eat regular meals.
Means that I'm as normal as anyone else. Then again, I feel like
that. (dead,unawaken)
Like when meet someone joyous, you feel his spirit, because he's
inspired.(in spirits)
