Alright this post I took alot of time to think of it and finally
I posted it out.
I met this girl, lets called her Alice. I know her in Sec 1 and we
were in the same CCA, the prefectorial board. During the first
years of secondary school, we meet everyday when school ends in
this children society setup so-called child care center named the
oasis. So, theres lots of board games and lots of stuff in it. The
all time favourite is of course Carom, but we love playing Chinese
Chess. So apart from the guys, we were playing Chinese Chess and
things were going well for us. As during that time, I aint matured
enough to think about relationship problem, but I do know that he
has a boyfriend and I get along well with her. Furthermore, I must
include, I doesnt have the looks, nor do I have the money. Though
it is very seldom both of us were toking either on phone on msn
during those times, but our relationship get better then just
hi-bye friend. So as we reached sec 2, I did not go to the oasis
like sec 1, instead, i started my basketball life and it seems like
everyday is a must to play basketball. I stayed back in school to
play till 7pm then will go home. I totally lost contact with her,
but because of CCA, I still do see her once in awhile during
meeting. So until sec 3, the science lab assistance picked up a
rabbit from outside and decided to rear it in our school backyard.
Well, at that time, I am also consider as an animal lover? I went
to the backyard almost everyday to feed the rabbit, play with the
rabbit and she came too. Well, she plays with it too and again, we
were like just friends relationship. Its always rabbit that got
into our topic and at the same time, she is indulge with a 4 way
relationship ties. 3 guys which shall be known as Calvin, Benjamin
and Jeremy. So Calvin is my basketball training partner, he doesnt
know I get along very well with Alice, but he is a well known
flirt, Benjamin is my buddy in my CCA. He is a normal technical
students and he has a very strange attitude. Jeremy, my president
in my CCA, had crush on her. at the same time he had very good
grades. So I helped her to deliever the message and found that she
likes Benjamin. I pulled both of them together and I lost contact
with Alice. Soon, the couples had quarrals and they started to say
breakup. Well, I patch them up and cool them down. Both of them,
lasted for 1year and a half. So a few months after they broke up, I
came to knew about it and I seek out Benjamin, then I contacted
Alice. Soon we came in close contact.
So, during november, when I was suppose to be collecting my
results, Alice came and told me that she will give me support for
my results, so I though,, okay. I opened up my result, a close
shave and I make it to O levels, I was real happy, I hugged her and
I changed to my outside clothes ane we went to celebrate in XXXXX
shopping mall. Well, soon after, I went back home and talk to her
on the phone till the night is over. But soon after, I did not
initate the next call till december, when one of my closest teacher
is celebrating her daughter first month old, we decided to have a
conference on the fone. I was included and so is Alice. Everyone is
talking and talking, till a point when one by one, everybody knock
out except for me and her. We chatted till 4am. After the long and
tiring night, I finally began to have feelings on her. So the next
day, I met her at her mrt station because she has been complaining,
everybody is living 3 stops away from her, she had nobody to go
with. So when we reached woodlands and bought the presents. The
next day, we met again, but this time, me and alice met first to
get beer at cold storage. It is a fearful exprience! We were
underage, yet we were getting alcoholic drinks! NVM about that, so
we reached my beloved teacher house, chatted abit, took a few
photos with the baby and it is time to say good bye. So everybody
left together and finally when we reached the bus stop, Alice
forgot her sunglasses, so I went back with her to get the
sunglasses. We chatted on the way there and on the way back.
Finally, I asked her a question, don't you have any guy in mind
now? Her answer is yes. So she told me that, Jason (also one of my
buddy), is her flings. Yet, she likes him! I was shocked and
stunned and whatever that is suitable in that fit the situation
means its. I told her, okay, but it seems like he knows nothing
about it. So, after awhile, it is my CCA camp. She came back as one
of the seniors and I wasn't around, everybody told me how drunk she
was and I started to panic for her. Cause the most 'Tiko' man was
there TOO! Well, at that time, that bastard was a good friend of
mine, he knows that I love Alice. So, after the incident, I called
Alice everyday, she will reply with a very gentle tone and sound
very energytic! Soon, it is already a habit that I was chatting
with her and even exchange SMS-es everyday. Both of us do initiate
SMS-es. Though I do it most of the time and the SMS even include
words like, I miss you. The love for you is overwhelming kinda
stuff. Well, it is kinda sweet at that moment. So she suddenly ask
me to go to church with her. I was like, Okay, I shall give it a
try, if it was other girl, I might say no, but it is her, I agreed
to her and went to church. Alright, I admitted, I goes to church is
because I wanted to see her. She is the only reason why I am going
to church. =) So we meet up on regularly for CellGroup and Service.
I am super happy and she is happy too! So during her collection of
results, she cried badly that she did not enter any of the JC, she
entered MI instead. I gave her a pat on the shoulder, console her
abit, but soon after she collected her result, I lost sight of her.
So, we continue to go to church for a few months and due to my
prelims, i had to stay away from church for a few weeks. I told
myself, for her, I am going to get into whatever school she is
studying in. In the end I did badly, she doesnt know a thing about
it and she suddenly told me that she is moving. I went to her
house, helped her move a few things over connect her PCs together.
i did it for a motive though. I want her to go online at night so
tat I can chat wif her on MSN. Soon, I became very ill, she keep
asking me to go to a doctor, yet I told her, its okay but I cough
like hell! So, finally, she took me to the doctor and during that
few hours, I played with her hair, joke with her, poke her all sort
of things happen. Never once in my life time, it can be so happy in
a polyclinic. I told myself, after all these, she might have
already fallen for me. So until July, my birthday came. I forgot
everything about it, I was in school and she fulfilled her promise,
she told me that she is going to make a memorable birthday for me.
I said, you sure? On that day, she called me and ask me where I am,
I told her I was at the basketball court, why. She said nothing and
she hang up the fone. A short while later, I saw a girl with MI
uniform, holding a cake with candle lited, and a present in hand
walking over to me and tell me Happy Birthday. During that point of
time, my mind went blank, all my training mates look at me, I was
blushed. I told her thanks, but deep in my mind, I would wanna hug
her, and gave her a peck on the lips and tell her, I love her. In
the end, I sent her to her mum and I went back home. So we were
like couples even before my birthday, I helped her with her
handbag, we goes out together without any other people
interferrence. A few months later, that 'Tiko' Bastard call me. At
the same time, Alice was on the other line, so this freaking
bastard switched over to conference mode and I kept quiet. He
called my name a few times, yet I did not answer, so suddenly he
asked Alice, do you know kalach likes you? she answer ya, but I
treat him just like a brother. After he finish that line, I hang up
the fone, and both of them knows it. I felt very disappointed, very
devastated and very upset. I got rejected just like this. I haven
even pick up my courage and that guy slam these rejection right
into my face. Though I know, I must face the reality, but isnt it
too soon, cant I even just prepare myself for that? So nvm, juz
blame everything to myself, again for a few days, they were unable
to find me. So at last, I go back to Alice, i believe myself again,
she at least like me alittle, well those were just presumtion. A
guy came into life, his name is JUDE. I hate his attitude + his
ignorance makes me feel like puking. But this guy is just as close
as I am with Alice in the past. So I told Alice, if ever he is with
that guy in a relationship, I will break several ties with her. So,
finally one day, she told me, JUDE is officially her bf, I packed
everything that she gave me into a envelope, gave her back and send
her a final goodbye message. Till now, 2 years has pass and I was
thinking about her almost everytime I passes her house, going to
place we went before, the lines that she said and the songs she
told me about. I tried to get myself a few Flings to forget about
her, but it doesnt work at all.
Well, if anybody had any ideas on how can I forget about her and
make her fade away frm me faster? Though I really wish for her to
be back and befriend me again. but it seems like its
impossible.
Well the above story i typed might missed out some parts, because
my hand were simply too tired typing all of the above, i tried to
summarize everything already. If you still find any part strange or
things like this, tell me which part it is and there might be add
on. =) sorry for the inconvience. =X
