I gonna quote part of my thesis on Homosexuality
from CloUdiSm:
'...It is true that woman are negative (yin) and man are
positive (yang) - but the make-up of a human consist of two
component, the soul and the body (your physical and your spiritual
form).
Firstly, we must come to a mutual agreement that:
(I) Everything existed on Earth is natural. As it exists on Earth,
it is a natural cycle of nature. Regardless of whatsoever ideology
that is taught to us as 'bad', 'evil' or 'unnatural'... in the end,
they are natural because it existed
and it is not a myth. The
classification of 'Good' and 'Evil' is but a product of man's
division. A gay person is not a myth - it existed, therefore it is
part of nature.
(II) Love is the attraction forge between two separate energies,
namely negative (yin) and positive (yang). You are attracted to
another person romantically because you two are unlike poles, not
like poles.
(III) If we measure masculine and feminine energy on a scale -
NOBODY is 100% masculine/feminine. Everybody falls in between this
scale. You witness this by having feminine man and masculine
woman.
IV) If you believe in reincarnation, what I am going to say will
probably make sense to you.
MOST people, being heterosexuals or the majority, have similar
energies with their soul and body (A man with yang-dominant soul or
a woman with yin-dominant soul). These category of people falls in
love with the opposite gender (with the exact opposite energy) and
attraction foster.
However, there are a category of people with conflicting flow of
energies within them. (A man with a yin-dominant or a woman with
yang-dominant). When that happens, there will be constant,
unconscious battle between the body and soul - both vying for
superior control of the man/woman because like fire and water, both
neutralise each other, which is one classic archetype of a person
with deep-seated karmic revolving love and relationship.
I did some self research, with astrology and the speaking to gay
people, and realise that there is a certain pattern to it: people
falling under this category usually have afflicted planetary chart
that spells difficulty or promise much hardship in love and
relationship. (Afflicted Venus, Moon and Uranus, Neptune, 5th, 7th
and sometimes 8th house is involved). How this is achieve? it is
believed that we will be reincarnated into the gender our soul
dictates - and of course if our soul is masculine, we will always
born into a man and when the energies of our soul and body is the
same - we are heterosexual... the common or the majority. After
several reincarnations into a guy, if you change one particular
reincarnation to a female... there will be a clash between our
higher self and our biological make-up because the soul would find
familiarity being a guy (and at times, would seek to revert back to
this familiar ground), while society and the body works to impart
'new lessons' of being a woman (unfamiliar ground).
You mentioned that a relationship between two genders is
'unnatural' - remember the mutual agreement? Love is the attraction
between two unlike poles? What if the energies of soul between the
two gay person is yin and yang separately? Spiritually speaking,
you must agree with me that this Love is also natural (albeit
physically, we all know that we ain't made for two man/woman to
have sex). Next time when you see a gay couple - take some time to
observe; you will notice that one mate will be taking on the
masculine role (e.g butch) and the other fulfilling the feminine
role (e.g. passive). And the roles they adopt reflect the energy in
their soul.
One might argue that the reason for this phenomenon is because a
gay couple replicate the model of a heterosexual relationship, in
which there must be a 'man' and 'woman' in a relationship. The fact
is, indeed, there must be two separate energies before Love can
foster. And the two separate energies will divide itself clearly on
the masculine and feminine role of the couple. The gay man will not
be interested in heterosexual woman because they share similar
negative/yin energies in their soul and vice versa.
Contrary to traditional belief: A gay person could achieve as much,
if not better, success than a heterosexual (Career is govern by
10th house/Saturn/Capricorn in natal placing). A gay person is NOT
hinder in that manner and anything that doesn't overlap very much
with love and relationship (Those affected usually includes: 4th
house (Moon, Cancer ruling) - Family is affected, 2nd/7th house
(Taurus and Libra ruling) - self esteem and marriage is affected,
11th house (Aquarius ruling) - friendship is affected, 12th house
(Pisces ruling) - Unconscious/karma is triggered).
Then after doing all my self research regarding Homosexuality, or
people with sexual crisis; I came to one main conclusion. People
being tormented by homosexuality all their life, usually suffer
from this: It is a mechanism created by karma, inflicted into a
person this lifetime because he/she has been cruel/misuse the power
of love previously. To have that force exuded previously and now
returning to him/her - the cruelty of love now befall onto the
person, suffering his own cruelty/misrepresentation of love he
previously exuded....'
From there, you probably got two possible long
term solutions to eradicate those conflicts. One is as what FI
said: you seek your inner self, which is familiar to your soul,
accept your original soul and reject current life lesson on your
'new gender' or seek to mollify your inner self by attempting to
take on this 'new lesson' and balance out everything from
within.
Trying to maintain 'both world' usually result in subconscious
conflicts that would devour you emotionally. 
Cheers
