Ever since I knew her, I discovered that I have been more moody,
consuming more beer than usual and have been imagining
things.......
tell myself,
be a gentleman,
think and behave as a gentleman
but i am still think ungentlemanly
i will feel jealous sometime
and i will be worrying too much sometime
i dun wan to but my mind keeps forcing me to do so
when i saw her with him i often eats vinegar although i try to tell
myself not to eat vinegar but still i behaves gentlemenly..... he
is a commando in NS while i am only a non combat bloody comms
spec
and when i heard that some gals do hide their relationship status i
worry again ----- what if she hides her realtionship status also?
will i be self-pwned?
all these things hv been bothering me in my mind 