The girl is obviously not worthy of your love.
Love isn't supposed to be that materialistic.
Please do reply soon about how things are going ok? Everyone's
worried about you.
Your self-worth is not determined by this girl or by just your
foolish actions alone.
You have so much to do still, and for that, you are valuable. Next
time, do not give your money away so freely. Control it wisely.
That doesn't means that you have to be a miser, but at least you
must have enough savings in hand, right?
Love will come your way when it is due. Please do not give up hope
and yourself. Live with the mistake and love yourself.