honestly, there's always so much at stake, so much more there is
in a relationship.. letting go just isn't as easy as falling in
love..
there's a girl i hardly know from my 1st year at jc.. she was
stunningly beautiful, but i wasn't interested in her because of her
over-friendly attitude.. however, she was there whenever i needed
her, she always said the nicest things, the things i needed most..
when no1 wants to break the painful truth to me, she'd be the only
one who'd do it for me because she cares enough to be the one who'd
say those things to me.. there was once i was really sad over my
girlfriend being unreasonable to me, she scolded me.. that's when i
realise i have feelings for her.. mild as they are, they do exist..
however, i chose not to let go of my girlfriend despite having been
hurt so much by her.. now, i fret over the smses i have to reply my
girlfriend everyday which lead to quarrels and i anticipate and
desire the smses of this girl of whom i met in jc.. she dropped out
of jc last year and i won't see her again.. she treats me as one of
her only close friends in jc whereas i feel differently as her..
she just sms-ed me regarding some work and i've been waiting for
her reply since.. i really wish to see her reply, yes i do.. but i
do have a girlfriend.. i feel like an asshole..
hahas k i know i'm a jerk.. falling in love is very must different
from falling OUT of love.. it's just so much more difficult..
