Currently, I am not attached yet, but there's this girl who I
like in class. Almost everyone in class know about this matter, as
once or twice, me and her went out, and some people in class saw us
together and spread the news ard.
Recently, a close fren of my in class told me that he like her too.
I actually had guessed long ago because he was basically clinging
on to her most of the time, and after school will always get her 2
go out to eat with him. It was ard the same time my father and sis
were admitted into hospital one after the other, and I was
shuttling my way frm school to hospital every day, and basically
became less close with the girl. I was just a little pissed that he
admitted to me only after having denied he liked that gal many
times when I asked him about it. I had told him before that I don't
mind him admitting straight in my face that he liked her, but he
always denied it, until one day he finally admit. Prior to that, he
had liked two other different gals in my class, and on both times,
he gave up after failing to win them.
After knowing that he liked her, I kinda kept my distance from the
girl, because I felt that the guy is much better than me in many
ways, and that he stood a better chance than me in winning her. I
know this type of thinking is wrong, but from young I had always
been like that. Its hard 2 change. The girl, had on two separate
occasions told me over MSN that she felt that she and I had kinda
drifted away, and asked me what's wrong. The first time, I told her
that it was because I was busy with my father's and sister's
matters, while the second time, I told her that it was because the
guy was always talking to her, and I cannot find the opportunity to
barge into their conversation. She told me to just join in the
conversation next time.
A lot of people in my class felt indigant on my part, saying that
the guy is wrong to potong jalan, although I personally felt that
since she and I are not in a relationship, it is alrite for him to
go and fight for his happiness. I myself don't know if its wrong or
not, but they say that since he had known long ago I liked the gal,
he should have wisely backed off.
I don't know if I am contributing to this topic or not, but I just
wanna get this off my chest, because I had been troubled by it. I
know that I either back off now, or fight for my own happiness,
yet, with each passing day, it seems that I am choosing the former.
Should I or shouldn't I?
