Guys, i don't know if i'd give this to her or not. But this is
just what i happen to feel at the moment. Please leave your
comments. I think by reading what i wrote you'd guess what its
about.
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I'm really confused.
Why do u have to do this to me? Its only been such a short time.
For all you know it may just be that we haven't been attached for
too long.. & Sometimes just feeling the pain of being
single..
You stroked my hand in the theatre.. on the phone you go like
"Jeremy... nothing.." where i bet you're just thinking of me. I
honestly, admit that plenty of those moments where i went
"Kimberly.. nothing.. " i was thinking of you. And also during the
times when we aren't talking or out together, i just miss you, and
wish you were beside me.
I mean, i have a little feelings for you, but truthfully, i'm
scared. I'm scared you've developed deep feelings for me, where i
have issues of my own to deal with. Things like my superficiality,
where i put the blame on the nature of guys. But i know deep down
to you, it seems like its just me. I'm just really sorry.
I know you probably feel disappointed and sad whenever i mention
things about looks or clothes.. And you also get scared when
choosing your clothes on a day out with me. This for fear of my
rejection.
I'm sorry for being so critical. But its just me. This along with
all my nastiness, my sniding at you, my laughing at you, but... let
just say not for my bullying of you! that was amusing
honestly!
But seriously speaking, i'm feeling confused. On one hand i like
you, at the other i'm scared it wouldn't work out, cos i just don't
wanna hurt you. You're a nice girl Kimberly, and i don't know what
will become of us, acquaintances, friends, best friends, or maybe
even get attached, but right now, everything is just going too
fast.
I'm sorry i'm broke, and i feel like an ass for making you pay for
my stuff. And though i know you didn't mind because you were with
me, it feels all wrong.. I wish i could take back my christmas
gift, and i wish i didn't accept your present, maybe that way,
things would be yet, still more normal between us.
Other things also, like holding you in the theatre when you were
feeling cold.. My go-.. (excuse my discomfort at saying the
phrase), what a mistake! what many mistakes i've made, giving you
too many signs. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.
All i ask for now is that you give me some space and time. To get
to know you better. Honestly, I don't know if you're the right girl
for me. And i most certainly hope you'd be still be fine after
reading this. But whatever happens, i know i'll never regret
meeting this girl i know called Kimberly..
