If you're turned off by ranting, you should stop reading
here.
I'm sick and tired of my work in camp as an NSF. I'm expected to help everyone with
every damn matter. I don't get peace even at the weekends and when
I'm on leave.
However when I'm made the middleman for a superior or another
branch, and request for items or data from the same people I help
on the formers' behalf, they accede to it really slowly. And I get
all the flak for not wasting my time to chase them harder. It's
soured relations with friends in the said branches
unnecessarily.
I don't have anybody's help at the moment, and with silly audits
coming up, the above situation is going to happen more often. There
are things that my ex-helpmate left undone when I wasn't around as
well and it's worrying me.
There are tasks not under my purview which I've had to take over
because they weren't done on time or improperly. People keep
leaving important files lying around. I have to be the one who
picks up after them, because if it isn't done, guess who gets the
blame for their irresponsible behaviour?
No one's able to take over my job for another 5 weeks. Sometimes,
I'm ready to snap at the next person who calls and says, "Can you
help me do this?" but I can't.
I've become moody lately. I'm probably exaggerating but my anxiety
manifests itself in the form of bouts of diarrhoea and gastric
pains. I'm ready to throw in the towel and check myself into the
infirmary for a long sabbatical. I know it's cowardly of me to want
to escape, but disaster's coming my way in the form of the audit
aftermath. Whether I'm there or otherwise, the wayang's not going to be complete
anyway. I'll let the bloody place collapse under their own
spineless, selfish and indifferent attitudes.
Being polite and helpful to these people doesn't give me
satisfaction any longer. I'm jaded now, sod my ORD in February
because it'll be nothing but misery til then, with only my trip to
meet kikq to look forward to.
Right, since my problem is insignificant compared to someone
else's, I'll shut up now.
