Chapter
14
My mind sank into anarchy; I had to coerce my feet into walking
they have refused to accept commands from the brain. And I wasnt
thinking right everything was negative, negative and more
negative.
Perhaps it was rude of me to merely run off without bidding
farewell, but the more I thought about it, the more it seemed like
a replica of my past. I may be accepting failure graciously, but
that doesnt mean I am able to have immunity to hurts. I am still
flesh and blood
an average Joe off the street - I do bleed
emotionally.
Then I saw Angeline, silhouetted against the light emitted from the
lamppost.
My breath grew heavier, with every step I trend forward.
There was no escape for me this time; maybe I should just face my
fear.
I apologize for running away without saying bye
Why did you run?
I didnt run away from you; I ran away from myself.
Why do you even have to run in the first place?
Because
I had to love an Angel, who has better choices outside
me
I had to evade and sacrifice myself to a greater cause
I saw shimmering tears in Angelines eyes; then she dashed towards
me and threw me a hug.
Why do you think she wouldnt choose you?
Thats because I understand the theory behind giving the best for
the ones you love. I know I am not good enough, but what matters is
your happiness not mine. I will be as equally happy if my Angel
is similarly blessed by someone else.
I felt my eyes becoming watery; I had to look at the night sky to
stop the tears from rolling off. Simultaneously, I tried to shape a
pseudo-smile, acting as a façade to hide my grief within.
Sometimes when we give up, we didnt know we are so close to
succeeding
Suddenly, my spirit lifted and I waited for her to continue.
I think that you are the best; would you reserve yourself for
me?
Finishing her words, her lips came to touch mine as I held her
hands and clasped it tightly. Kiss is a lovely trick designed by
nature when words become superfluous.
Is not a kiss the very autograph of love? Hah!
And Johnny was so damn right God is fair
God gave me his
Angel!
And I knew I had won the battle.
- The end -
(Names have been changed to protect identity)
