Feeling confuse and not sure my feeling now!
Just few months ago! I have uncondition love for my darling! Love
her very deep. But recently know a gal. A dream gal which i always
think will exist only in my dream. At the first of exquistence,i
find her very quiet ,unappealing and moody lady which virtually i
have no positive feeling towards her. After a few more days of
communication,we start to have more than just work talk and I saw
her smile which is very sweet( a contrasting viewof her cold look I
encounter on the first day).
She is not as quiet as she appears to be,she can joke with you when
u know her more and not as bore as I think! In fact,she is a very
caring and gentle lady. Once I accidently injured my hands and
bleeds,she use her hand and quickly wipe my dirty blood off without
hestitation and ask me for my well-being. Then there is once i was
sick and inform her of her situation and i happen to tell her
casually that i have a review check up for my illness. She can
remember exactly the day before i need to go for review and remind
me of it! After a few weeks I will say i was a little touch by her
action! A really thoughtful and gentle lady..
A very well-manner ,sensible lady who will wait for all her know
colleage to come before eating as they are all still queuing up! I
was a bit surprise and embarrass by her act! I was digging in on my
lunch while she sat there quietly and patiently waiting for other
colleage(my colleage too) to all gather and sit down for their
lunch before starting for her meal! Just like little well-manner
children waiting for all the elders to sit first before touching
the untensils for food. I was a little uneasy by her act and i too
slowly put down my utensil and waits for other to arrive before
handling the food. She also eat plainly and never wear branded
clothes like her peer. She basically lives simplely. Never
club,smoke and no bad habits.
While her working attitude is all employer likes to employ. She
works non-stop from the moment she steps in office to the working
time it ends. She is not those who really finds nothing to do,will
see down surf the net a while or taking a small coffee break. She
just continue to search and asking for work to do,no matter how
difficult or tough the task is. She works sensibily by asking
questions for every new task given to her. Showing she don works
blindly.. She will volunteer to do the works herself and even do
works quietly so as not to her so called ' trouble others' . She is
those type who will try her best to do everythings herself and only
seek help when impossible to handle that task like carry a 30 kg
load. Then she will seek help. She is very courteous and will say
thank you all the times after a task is complete and every single
help without fail.
To me,she is just like an angel... She still got which too many
virtues to mentions in her! I was like ' Can such gal still
possible to exist in this world?'
Today,I have a fight with my ger over a small issue and have some
different views on a matter and she throws tantrum and act like a
child. I was quite pissed off and suddenly think whether will we
have this kind of incident often after we married. I told myself I
don want to get into this kind of misery! Now,I start to consider
our r/s liao.But my ger is also a very sweet ger who do many good
things for me too which i will never forget!. She is also a very
good gal who never club and a homely gal.
Now i am confused why my consideration of my r/s with my ger is
becos my encounter of this super good gal which shaken my
unqestionable love for my ger or really becos of the small incident
over her tantrum that shaken that my future,like with my ger will
be a mistakes! Btw, i still love my ger a lot but I scare future
such incident will ruin my life in future? 
Is it me changing of heart or not???
