Hi everyone
What I am going to share with you is something that is bothering me
recently. I am not asking for trouble here but I really do not know
where to turn to. I cannot share this with my friend. As you read
on, you will see what I mean.
I am happily married to the nicest guy who holds a stable job, is
loving and caring. Other than working, he spends all this time with
me and tries to do things for me and with me. He is all that any
woman will want to marry. I am glad and I know I am lucky and
blessed.
But in recent weeks, I am bugged with this thought. The thought of
having a fling outside. Yes, in the past, I used to have many
boyfriends and I changed boyfriends like nobody's business. All my
friends had a hard time remembering who I was going out with.
It sounds fun and crazy and it was indeed fun to have new guys
every now and then. But soon I realised that I did not like this
kind of lifestyle. It just wasn't me. I decided that I was after
all still very much conservative and I longed to settled down with
somebody stable and loving.
Soon I met my husband. He is not the romantic kind that will
surprise me with roses and presents. He is the homely kind that
likes to stay at home with family to have dinner and watch TV. This
is the perfect kind of husband -- the stay-at-home kind of man. He
even helps out with housechores and groceries.
Everything, except sex life, is perfect after we got married. Due
to the nature of his work, he is highly stressed and doesn't
perform much in bed. Even when we were newly wed, we didn't make
love more than once a week.
Recently, as mentioned earlier I have been thinking about having an
affair outside. I don't think it has to do with my low sex life
with my husband, or rather, I don't really know either.
When this thought first came to me, it was not so much of having
sex with other men. I didn't think of having one night stand or
something. But rather, I was more into having a fling, a short time
relationship. I suddenly miss infatuation. I miss the strong
emotion that I used to have when seeing new guys.
I have been married for a short while only, definitely less than 7
years. So this shouldn't be a 7 years itch kind of symptom. It is
bugging me and I dare not share with any of my friends, even the
girls. Because the whole world think that I have a perfect husband
and they will scream my head off for sharing this with them,
instead of helping.
I hope to hear some advice here or find out where I can get
helped.
Thank you for your time reading this.
