Hello everyone..it has been quite sum time, l decide to post
sumtinz here..due to laziness and playing too much games lately, l
dont post anything here, only come here and read the stories
inside..
Today l am here to tell u all sumtinz...hoping u all tell me ur
thinkings and comments.
l hav a ex gf...me and her were together for 5 months + and then we
break..Initally was veri gud...for the 1st two months, but as time
passes..getting worst..l dun understand wad fault l have..l always
think of her, treat her veri nice, buy things for her, care for
her, help her do things without even grumbling . But she seems
unappreciated. whereas her guys classmates who is cool looking or
shuai help her do a bit of things, she is delighted over the moon.
l am an average looking guy anyway..do so much oso = shit, shuai
ppl do things owazs the most nicest and best..this is the feeling
she give me.. And l ask her why her friends help her do things, she
so happy, and me help u do so many things, u like nver seem to be
veri happy or wad...She give me a response that l wont forget
forever "this is what you should do" Indeed it shocks me, but l
like her mah, so l dun care much. Den when l am with her, my words
are restricted. l have to be careful in my words. Some things l
cant say, or she angry le.
Everything..is always my fault, she no fault de..and every time
quarrel is she initated de..den in the end, l juz keep apologising
and apologising..
Always got scold by her, scold me "jian huo", "ask me go die", l
didnt even scold her at all. To her she scold me..she thinks it as
a joke and laughs it away or nothing, but l am a human too..imagine
ppl scolding u when u hav done nothing wrong, how do u feel? but
she dun care abt my feelings, l guess.
Told her once that l like this shirt..a mickey shirt tat costs onli
$22. And she promised to buy for me...but in the end, she never
buy. Her $ in the wallet keep accumlating, and l saw her
wallet..she told me the $, she going to use for herself, wtf.. If
dun wan buy then dun promise ppl. her wallet is getting fatter and
fatter, what abt mine..my wallet lighter and lighter, and she dun
even cared. She wants wad, she told me..l quickly save adn buy for
her le..even if l hav to starve my stomach or borrow $ from other
ppl.
She dun care whether l am tired or not..being with her, at times
tiring, but no matter wad..l always smile and treat my best to
her.
Called me, and what she told me...her most favourite topic...always
like to tell me abt the guys in her school, this guy cute or shuai,
or outside she see this guy tat guy...l guess most guys hear their
gf telling them all these..will be angry or wad, rite..but l
never..l listen lol, although l admit l am not veri happy. Why
compared? And why tell me, l am not interested oso..then l quietly
listen..she oso angry...say hey y u no response de? WHAT THE FUCK,
u say all these things, wad response u want me to have ne? she
always love to compare...But certain things really cannot be
compared de mah..No matter what l do, just because l am an average
looking guy. l get such unfair treatment...l guess u all oso noe
wad l am thinking...now l get this theory from her, As long as u
are shuai or gud looking, u own. You want wad oso can, u do bad
things, ppl oso clap hands for her or complimented u..whereas u are
an average looking guy, u get nothing..
she never complimented me before...even if got...oso veri
less..
During her examinations period...mid yr exams, l did told her not
to call me so much or go out. She never listen. And when results
not so gud..she simply pushed the blame to me. Like l am the
downfall of her exams..she nver say to me. But l can feel it..the
attitude and what she says.
Then after her results out le..her attitude to me change le...treat
me coldly and giv negative response. l think she wanna break with
me..but she dun dare say out..so she resorted using such a method
lor, forcing me to say out...until l realli cant take it...on
monday...l took a cab down to her house and told her. l cried badly
as l told her, is like l cant bring myself to say..l feel that she
is juz pointing a gun, forcing me to say...l that day reali sad..l
told her my heart is shattered to pieces and is veri painful...but
she didnt even cried or rite...l say break softly..she says ok
lor..so sad rite? l feel that l am being treated like a toy
onli...she sian le, tired of this toy, she throw it away..imagine
this feeling, u are being treated like a toy.... After that..l
msged her...asking her whether l shld wait for her, she told me she
feel confused..zzz
Sad rite..told this story to my frenz they all...they told
me...this conclusion..maybe she liked u at the start...den
eventually she veri confused, dun noe wan u anot, and is change of
heart..
haiz...l am now okie le...but just wanna share this story with u
all...and want to see u all de comments and reactions, and what u
all concluded..=) thanks