everytime i dream its bloody nightmares.
huge original scenarios, big houses, people, demons etc, created by
wtf? just for the nightmare? so much detail in totally real strange
creepy places which i have NEVER seen or imagined before. well in
only 1 recent one i was in my house.
every nightmare im being HUNTED and i try to kill all the people
who are hunting me (usually with a knife and i mutiliate them) and
everybody around me and my family is killed (tho in my nightmares
thats not an important part and i never feel anything about them
dying) and im ALWAYS going to be killed within 3 days and GO TO
HELL.
sometimes it makes no sense also, like once, near the end, there
were demons all around me and my dead family in hell telling me how
not to go to hell, and what they said was something silly i would
never think of imagining... but it was useless.
even worse im trapped in them for hours, theres a real sense of
time moving as slowly. theres colors. details. i remember the green
of the sulphur. or the total blackness. its so damm real! and its
totally not daydreams and i cant possibly have thoughts about "this
is a nightmare, i will wake up". i AM THERE.
i dread the long and lonely nights, dread my mind slipping off into
evil subconscious. for all the years i slept very little anyway,
once in 2 nights and ard 3 am till 7am. got permanent dark eyes for
many years. every time i wake up i first think the nightmare shd be
made into a horror movie.
on 6th june before going to bed i feeling uneasy liao then as i
started to drift off i felt 'stuck' in the half falling into
unconscious stage. then the devil satan got into my head and my
vision kept shaking left and right nonstop and i kept hearing his
LOUD laughter and he told me he wont kill me yet because im doing
his work here on earth. there was a deep blackness surrounding the
central image which i couldnt try to recall. i felt frozen when it
ended. the next day i was sick n vomiting all day.
in real life my mind is tortured too.. it just wont shut up.. i
hate being alone with my nonstop mind and no stimuli
