I cannot get out of the guilt of hurting so many girls
especially LC, childhood sweetheart . Not like many ppl, i am not
allowed to get into r/s until university. Imagine all along I like
this girl since 7 yet she thought I was a arrogant guy who refused
to go after her .. when I really like her .. so much that I ignore
a lot of girls.
I made them like me for 4 whole years , wasting their youth , 2 of
them still hate me till this day. imagine a 21 yr old guy dun noe
how to hold a girl's hand when she was already ready .. imagine a
22yr old guy still stuck in a stupid dilemma of loving his gf or
that dumb bitch. imagine a 23 yr old guy dun noe how to call a girl
to talk to .. I am so deprived of r/s experience ... don noe how to
call my gf everyday at 25 .. why do I have to learn it so late
???
sigh, it feels terrible , I was always popular , yet I can't go out
with girls i like. when I got girls many guys are after , i dun noe
how to make them happy. wtf .. sometimes i really blame my mother
for tying me .
I dun noe wad is r/s , dun noe how to bring girls for exciting
adventures .. why why why ? I juz can't get out of this and that's
why I always want to have a girl and make her happy. That's why I
am never happy when I am single .. so many unfulfilled experience
...
wanna get out of this
