just last monday when i was clearing leave i was at home and
when i finished breakfast, the papers ard 9.30am and planned to go
out soon when my mum came back and asked me whether i want to go
buy groceries with her since we didnt have time on sat and
sun.
seeing that she had some work to be done i waited for a while till
10plus. since she was still working on stuff and i hate being
delayed for so long i went back to my room to watch some videos.
unhappy, i decided not to talk to her because i didnt want to argue
with her over this waiting for each other issue.
later she came into my room and repeatedly asked me to go now. i
refused and ignored her because it was late and i didnt want to
engage her in arguements.
she repeatedly raised her voice and screamed at me when i refused
to talk to her and she acted like a kid, stomping her foot on the
floor and whimpering. the more i refused to engage her. she left
and i locked the door but she returned a while later and kept
hammering on the door, threatening to break down my room and call
my PC.
i told her why i didnt want to go and i lost my cool and she made
threats to punch me. she refused to leave and sat down on my bed
holding this metal cutter in her hands.
i again told her to go out on her own because i didnt want to go
with her. she said sorry after some arguements but her sorry are so
superficial. she can say sorry then suddenly backtrack within a
min.
she finally left. i told her not to harass me anymore by calls or
sms. but just before she drove out,she called me twice and i
refused to pick up. she then kept sms-ing me and i replied to 1 of
them telling her to stop harassing me. she didnt stop and kept
sms-ing calling me.
i went on later on my own and cooled down abit. i was reminded by a
song to forgive. so i went back and wanted to make peace. just as i
got off the bus, she was back at the same time, but she gave this
stare from the main gates, loaded with fury and this shut me off
frm making peace.
i was watching tv with my dad later when she joined us, there she
acted like nothing had happened, i refused to talk to her because i
know she will pick a fight after this.
the next day i was with her at the saf counsellor and she was
there, playing victim, telling all sorts of lies and portrayed her
version of the story to make it look i caused it all.
i told her to leave me alone from now on.
on my way back frm camp, she became her old self again. defensive,
lying.
then just now, while i was having a great day, she decided to
destroy it all by repeatedly barging into my room ask me
things.
i've had it with her already. sometimes i just want to cry and find
some place where no one can find me. i am constantly hoping for
some freak accident to kill me instead
