You see, I have several incidents that makes me unable to get up
and do somethings properly without even worrying that it might
happen again.
Firstly, there was this girl, she was just a girl I've seen before
somewhere in school and during PE, we were playing something like
soccer, I was trying to catch it but she suddenly threw the ball to
another side forcefully and becuase I was the goalie, I had to ran
to the ball to picked it up and behind me, she screaming away at me
like a mad girl. After that incident, she started to scold me
behind my backs, calling me a slut all that. Also, she tried to
saboh me everytime a sitaution wnet wrong. I didn't know why she
was soo mad at me, trust me, all I ever had was went on a chatline
(where my classmates use to frequent) to look for comfort as a
friend, so I begin chatting up wif the guys (the girls in class are
not really close to me and some the nice girls are not on the
chatline) so I assume she must be jealous that I am chatting wif
them because I heard from my friend that the guys in the class
talks about me and their conversation in the class. 
Secondly, there was this attention seeker guy. He is like always
trying to be holier than thou, though he never follows what he
'preaches' he's always putting down those lazy, late-comers,
boastfull ppl etc. you get the drift. In actual fact, he does
everything of the above >.< But because he always made it
seems that he is the 'one' to change them, he once went overboard
on me by standing in front of the whole class saying, 'you know
what happens to people like that?' After he finish hi sentence, he
walks over to my desk and he use his legs to bang on my table. I
got shocked and I heard a guy laughing real hard and I turn my head
beside me and saw how he looks like he enjoyed seeing me being
totored From that
onwards, I always had this image of him laughing real hard at me
wherever and whatever I do...
Thirdly, I have a 'friend'. She is always following the crowd. So
whatever bad things ppl do to me, she automatically thinks im a
nusiance and screams at me for no reason. To tell u the truth, If I
see her on streets, I feel like kicking her >.<
Lastly, when I view pretty images like models actresses actors all
that. I felt jealous. Yes, it's because they are beautiful that
they are in the spotlight. But mostly it's because their attitudes
and inner beauty sucks that's why they get most of the
spotlight..take for example, Paris Hilton. She reminds me of those
pretty girls in real life that act like her, spoilt and so on,
bad-tempered but they get the most attention. Inner beauty? Nah,
who wants to see inner beauty..you dun hear ppl saying, 'waa, she
is so kind-hearted and hardworking, I like her for that' instead,
'waa, she's so chio' is often heard. Search for good looking ppl,
you get more results than say..stephen hawking, einstein etc.
People also dun purposely create a inner beauty forum or place to
worship them, even if so..their activity ratings are not up to par
than say, a forum with very good looking people. Who wants to talk
about mother teresa?
Sigh, anyways, do give your opinions about this matter. I hope to
hear from you people 
