Yesterday night at 9pm, i got a sudden MSN msg from her. My ex.
I was very surprise yet afraid. After 1 year + of no contacts after
we broke up, she contacted me.
In the end, i was very sad and angry after this 4 mins of
conversation. In the chat, she asked me not to initated any forms
of contacts to her. She kept saying she hoped that we ceased all
contacts from now on, she lives her life while i will live mine.
She did apprec all the small gestures i did for her during the past
mths. That's all. I even asked her why, till now..she say she do
not need the concern. She also say, " so to just let you know, i
will be deleting ur contact from now on" goodnites and she logged
off, forever.
For the past few mths on impt events like her birthdays, exam
periods and even..Val day, i msged her, gave her a card. I know
that she will not reply but i just want to let her know of my
concern to her. Later two months now, she MSN me. I am very angry
by her way of doing things in the last time and now, she just
intruded my life by clicking the mouse and made my life upside down
again in just 4 mins. Can't she end this thing in a more humanly
way or faster way..shd't she just cut me off 1 year ago. Why waited
till now...
Btw, both of us are in early 20s..Love is really just an illusion.
I am pretty upset yest, but now getting better. When i thought
about what she say, i felt so pain in my heart. Yes, i will keep my
words and shut her off from my mind now. But before penning of the
world she and i together first..i know its silly. 
