To make it simple, I had been with this girl for 6 years, and
planning to get married. At that time, i always like to gamble
soccer. So got 1 day, I lost alot, until I need to borrow money
from loan shark...the amount...not to mention, it is near
42K.
In my first 2 months, i have no problem paying the installment,
however my colleagues realized I often use the company computer for
soccer betting, as a result, i lost my job. The loan shark was
extremely harsh, and I cant pay. That point of time, i had a lot of
arguement with my galfren. We are engaged, she still have the
engagement diamond ring, so i asked her to sell it to pay my debt.
Instead, it caused much of arguement, and 3 weeks of heated
arguement, she left.
At that point of time, i hated her so much and I cursed her,
leaving me when i am in such a trouble, when i needed somebody the
most.
4 years past. much had changed. I am a new life. Stead job, quit
smoking, not to mention gambling. I am now going happily steady
with a gal, going to get marry soon. She was my source of
inspiration these few years. I still hate my ex-gal fren until One
day....
One day when i was walking down Raffles City, i saw her!!. I really
wanted to go over to scold her, ( coz last time no chance, she
changed her address and her mobile number, even her workplace).
When i was about to open my mouth, i was shocked, she is still
wearing my engagement ring. I sacarsitically
asked her, "wah, still wearing my ring". She didnt notice who i was
until she turned her head behind. Tears when dripping her eyes. I
turned serious, and began to talk to her.
I was shocked to that she
1) is still paying my loan shark money (left back 2000)
2) inform the loan shark not too look for me, if not she will not
pay a single cent, becoz she knew i am guy who needs alot of face,
from friend and family
3) she never wanted to sell away the engagement ring
She never ask for anything in return. She is turning 29 years old
now, still single. She also dun wan to give me her mobile number,
only a hotmail address, as she knows i am going to get married
soon. ( She saw my ring)
Hate turn into luv and guilt. On that day she left, I luv her so
much that it took me 1 year to forget her.
i thought it was my parents who called the police and settle the
loan shark case, i didnt know........ Since no one bug me for
money...still care meh that time!!!.
Suddenly i feel like going back with her, she had done so much for
me and the reason i hate her and to forget about her in the past,
is becoming the reason why i should luv her more.
But, BUT, my current galfren also did not do anything wrong to me,
and had been supportive to me throughout all these 3 years.
How...who should i choose.
I love both of them now, but now i got an extra guilty feeling to
my first love. HOW?? i am soo confused...
If u r me, who will u choose? i dun wan to hurt anyone 
