Today i walked her from the bus-stop to her void deck.During the
walking ordeal, i really wanted to hold her hands and say "i love
you,can you be my girlfriend?" . But everytime when my hand was
about to move , my heartbeats will just accelerate,making me
nervous and thus chicken out in the final minute... and the best
part is .. it will take me one week before i can ask her out again
( due to her busy schedules ) ..
Yes .. she told me that she likes me too .. but because we had been
dragging this "relationship" for too long , i found that we have
less topics to talk about .. resulting in a more awkward each time
we meet. i have a feeling that after today she wont like me anymore
( because i STILL did not ask her to be my girlfriend) and the fact
that we are talking lesser and lesser ..
Fcuk me . Fcuk myself for being so humji .. i really cant describe
my feeling now .. i mean .. i should just go to hell . i feel like
shouting .. hitting something .. argh .. just go to hell pls
.....