He suggested it because we were so happy together until the
stuff she said began to affect me. I became very volatile. Cause
and effect, in doing so, he becomes more conservative. Doesn't talk
to me as much as he used to.
I understand if we're not ready, that's fine. But it was how it was
put to me, just like giving me something to believe in then taking
it away suddenly and I had to fake a smile to pretend it was all
good.
I admit I've not been very kind to him by overloading him with the
sorts of crap i get from her. In fact, I have absolutely no desire
to hate anyone whatsoever, but if a person is being insulted and
consistently being reminded by another girl that she knows
absolutely bollocks about her boyfriend, or that she is, in
summary, DIFFERENT and therefore in the "outcast" category, I
frankly have no other place to run. My self-esteem plummets farther
into the freaking depths of I have no idea where.
Now, my main concern is how I can become my happy carefree self
again. I will not intend to put up with this treatment farther. He
can call me oversensitive etc, whatever its up to him to be
creative, but I know I have a darn good reason for feeling this
way. And if I am being reasonable, I will find a way to put an end
to this rubbish. Without crying myself to sleep again tonight.
