Move on buddy.. Girls at that age tend to be unpredictable,
nonetheless the same for guys too.
You can be BGR with her, just don't take it so seriously initially.
Look what almost happened the 1st time round.. You took the
relationship so seriously to the point of almost losing your
life.
Being a christian, is she one too? It might be easier to share
christian values in a relationship if both parties are serious
about walking right with God. If not, then perhaps it is better to
move on.