Friend.....you are not able to think clearly....but
subconsciously deep down in your mind somewhere the alarm bells are
ringing very loud and therefore you are indeed 'disturbed' as your
nick suggests...
I recommend you to move out and get a change of environment, get
away from her for the time being....because you are unable to think
or control yourself in that environment.....it is like putting
yourself and setting up yourself in a time bomb...waiting to
explode....waiting for something bad to happen....
Why not you move out, stay at some friend's place......to calm
yourself down and think for a bit....I really dont think you can do
anything much or anything helpful or positive if you keep putting
yourself in that kind of situation.
And do this quickly, ok?
