Originally posted by blueberryjam:
argh im so pissed... with myself. i've seen his true colours. why
the hell did i bother looking into his eyes, and believing his lies
again once more?? im stupid, im dumb, im brainless.. im blind. for
those who read my the other thread ( http://www.sgforums.com/?action=thread_display&thread_id=183435
) seems like im in the wrong.. but then.. i just found out.. he's
still him. he didnt change.. no, not at all.
when we were still tog in the past, everytime when i asked him wats
he doing, he would jus say watching tv.. but now i found out, he's
been using the net, and he blocked me in msn, so that he can chat
with others.. and i wont know anything even if im online.. becos he
would appear offline in my screen.
he even blocked my close frens in his list, afraid that my
frens would see him and then give him away.. argh.
ASSHOLE.
and when i logged in into his game acc.. i see names which are nt
sup to be there, appeared there.. he told me he stopped contacting
them, and that he had del them already. yes i went in once in the
past, those names were gone.. now, i see them again. which means to
say.. again, behind me, he's been contacting with alot of other
girls....
godddddddddddd. what have i done to deserve this.. someone pls tell
me. and i really thought he changed, to think that everytime i
doubt him, he said i kept accusing him.. i felt so guilty for
making his days bad.. and now.. im here feeling betrayed.. being
lied to.. the second time.
to think that i sent him mails and smses saying im sorry.. and
tryin to work things out for this r/s... he actually doesnt give a
shyt at all..
im so glad now.. becos wat he did to me, jus let me get over it
faster.. but.. im so afraid of trusting guys now.. i guess if i
ever have another bf again, i will still keep doubting him and
every of his moves.. hais.....
actually i have another viewpoint...did you ever consider maybe
he blocked you and your friends cause of your overbearing and
controlling attitude towards him after the first time he
flirted...cause if he really told you he was interacting with other
girls, whether flirting or not, you would sure to have blown your
top etc...so maybe he was wanted some peace and quiet and not have
a person dictating what he should or should not do...hence the
aforementioned actions taken. however i would not discount the fact
that he might done things behind your back either, just that the
information provided is inadequate for me to come to an instant
conclusion, so i think it would really depend on the content of his
sms reply, if he ever replies that is. just my 2 cents.[/b]
