hi peeps. this is my first time posting. anyway i was
recommended to come here by my fren. dunno will it help or not. but
nvm. enuff of the crap. its a long story btw.
ok theres this guy. i got to noe him around the beginning of this
year. i wont say he's good-looking but he is a unique guy. first
few weeks past and i dint really pay attention to him. then there
was once he wrote me a note to inform me abt something and from
then on i was attracted to him. dun ask me y. me myself dunno the
reason behind this. then we started to chat often on msn and i felt
comfortable tokking to him.
on valentine's eve he spent around 40+ minutes on msn to persuade
me to confess to the person tat i like and i did gave in. after
finally plucking up the courage, i told him. he replied "i know".
anti-climax isnt it?? he said he isnt rejecting neither is he
accepting because he needs time. (theres this gal who he still cant
get over wif)
but the confusing part is tat, if he needs a break from
relationships, according to him, then y did he treat me better day
by day? he claimed he knew abt my feelings since day 1. as in, if
he needs a break, y wud he even bother to get this close to me? i
hope im not thinking too much but i do haf little frens and he's
one of the few tat i can relate too.
well, i dunno wat made me do it but 2 days after my confession, i
told him im giving up. his reaction was just as normal. i think its
either an "ok" or "anything", nothing remarkable. yar so life goes
back to normal. we do tok a lot still on msn in a frenly way. btw
he's a gal magnet and i dunno y so many gals are telling me hes
hot. (cough cough)
then last friday he smsed "wanna meet tmr? i return u ur
thumbdrive. if u wan we can haf dinner together too". after
consulting my frens i decided to go. i dunno whats the point of him
asking me out lah, though he said its to thank me for helping him
wif things.
so on saturday i turned up. we had dinner at billy bombers. u noe
the guy-pull-out-chair-for-gal thing? ya he did tat and he poured
drinks for me. but dinner tat time i was either too nervous or out
of my mind. i kept screwing things up. i touch fork, fork drop. i
touch knife, knife drop. i couldnt even cut wif my knife to tat
extent tat he had to cut the food for me. worse still, i
embarrassed myself my speaking wif a mouth full of food. then
suddenly he stared at me intently, i thot wat, then he passed me a
piece of tissue and say "theres food stain on ur mouth"
-_-'''
ok i noe i gave myself away too much at the dinner. ya then after
dinner he suggested watching movie. there wasnt much nice shows and
most ticks were selling fast. he's nice enuff to offer to watch
final destination 3 wif me though he had watched it once already.
in the end i told him not to waste money so we went for a stroll
around the neighbourhood.
we found a pretty peaceful place and sat down. he commented tat the
stars were nice. after tat he sang songs and showed me some dance
steps. ya basically for the whole nite we sat there enjoying the
tranquility of the place and he sang a majority of jay chou songs.
suddenly he said he wud like to hear me sing. of course im shy and
stuff so i told him i wud sing the next time. then for dunno wat
lah, he commented "there may not be a next time coz u noe im going
into army..."
i felt disappointed but of course i dint show it. after tat he gave
me the round thing from his keychain. he say wat, he's giving it to
me as a ring. maybe he's just trying to be lame, i dunnoe. he did
mention tat he can stay until very late but maybe i need to go home
le. so around midnite i seriously think tat my mum was boiling wif
rage so i said i gotta go. he walked me home. when i reached home i
realised im still holding on to the 'ring' of the keychain. i smsed
"u forgot to take ur 'ring' back". he says "u keep it, i dun need
it anyway"...
ya tat was wat the story is abt. but the problem is tat, who am i
to him? maybe he did treat me like a fren and its normal to go out
wif a fren. ya. i really hope im not thinking too much or else i
wud haf been wasting so much of my time fretting upon this! btw im
indeed a stupid gal. on tat day itself he said "i've got free
tickets to ice age2, u wan or not?". instead of replying a yes, i
exclaimed "hey where u get the free ticks?!"... ya tat was
completely anti-climax. so now i dunno whether its set or he merely
mentioned it in a no-big-deal way. i could haf gotten the chance to
go out wif him again if i told him i wan the ticks. haiix. so how
now?? and he's leaving for army in april. but is he even interested
in me?? or shud i ask him abt the ice age thing to get myself a 2nd
chance??
