Hi all, new here
Just wanna post something that has been on my mind for very long
time, but dont really have the guts to. ( dont really know if this
topic was created before, i apologise if i did a repeat
thread)
Just a general statement, is waiting a fool's game (for
love).
I know that in my case, I always have been waiting for the girl to
accept me. Despite waiting for ages (sec1 - sec 2 End of year ) ,
all i Got was a negative reply. I put in the effort and time to woo
the girl, but still , i guess i dont make the cut. Although the
girl said NO to me once before, i continued to woo her still ,
thinking i can melt her heart.
But, then i asked again after another year, but this time i just
realised that she has a boyfriend, so i discontinued my "waiting
game". It was devastating, i was totally crushed and felt so lost.
I wandered aimlessly in msn, games and all around thinking that
this shouldnt be happening.
But i got back on my feet and widened my social circle (I only have
a few close friends with me back then), I got to know this girl
through IRC (same school) and she is supposedly to be the
smart,nice,sweet, girl next door.
Half a year later (sec 3 mid year) , I found that we have common
interests and stuffs so I decided to try my luck and began the
"wooing process". I admit, i pestered her aimlessly on msn and
smses. I told her I would wait for her, which took another half a
year , and still we kept in contact and I still waited and waited
and waited. But in the end, she gave me a reason to why cannot
accept me, all due to studies. I was crushed yet once more, how
many times God wanna test me? I asked myself whether is it because
of my looks and character?
Then now, I'm in a poly, which i wont disclose, I just recently
found interest in another girl (same class) , though she hinted to
me many times that I do not stand a chance, I'm still determined to
woo her. tell me, is history going to repeat itself and me... am I
a fool, for this waiting game?
