Very heavy maternal influence (likely to have
plantary affliction in 1st, 4th, 5th, 11th, 12th house and
especially Moon).
You are an intelligent man; to enable you to enlist into a local JC
and university, probably means that your mental and logic
development is relatively decent. You understand your own
situation, with regards to the emotional side of your life that is
badly affected because of your deep-maternal influence. You
probably feel restricted, confine in a world where your mum
construct a rigid standard and expects you to follow tightly.
Values... morals and all the other knowledge and information
flowing into you from your mother and has to be upheld at all
times.
Your self identity is in a crisis. This has led to a contrasting
display of personality to the world that doesn't tally with your
actual true self. What you are feeling emotionally is the YOU
wanting to liberate from this domineering influence... life has
inflicted into you. It reflects clearly on your thinking, like how
you want to dress yourself (self identity), how you want to mingle
with new crowds (self identity) and most important - how
you want to discover yourself (self identity).
You must understand that you are ABLE to control all this new found
'desire' or 'new options/routes' in life is because of the
suppression you are so used to it. It SUPPRESSED whatever weak
energy you have, to pick a different way of life (could be your
'actual' way) and you translate it into good emotional control. If
you put some thoughts into them, it could be due to passiveness and
not good control that is hindering you from doing anything. And
this passiveness is indeed a psychological ill product of your
early developing years.
Before you can attempt to walk your own life, you must source for
the courage to change them. You don't have to rebel (Uranus
influence) openly, but you can try all sort of alternatives to
bring to where you want to go. If you can't see a distant future,
learn to make short-term goals and watch your own
progression.
As for your motherly influence, communicate, compromise and put
some enlightenment into your own domestic environment. I am not
you; I don't know exactly what's wrong, but the basic of truth is
that most relationship-bonds-related issue needs communication to
resolve and dissolve. You may not be able to change everything into
your ideal situation, BUT, certainly, things will be less intense
and gets better with proper understanding and communication.
You are a human being.
You lead your own
path to destiny.
If you have a religion, explore them. 
Cheers.
