why can't i find him in my life? where is the prince charming
for me?
Juz when i thought i am one of a lucky girl to have found the man
whom i believe i could spend my life with, whom loves me
wholeheartly no matter what.
God took my happiness away, by telling me how stupid i am, to
believe that the man whom i trusted will really treasure and love
me for what i am. Pple often say, "when God took something away
from you, he will give you something in return" so what is my
return?
Distant is getting nearer, the closeness is leaving, love is
fading, Yet its so beyond me... He no longer understand me for what
i am. And time goes by, i realise that i have actually meant
nothing to him.Thats why i get all the blames and also pin-point.
In fact i mean stress to him. But i am also stress! If thats so,
why tell me "i love u! even when u do this!" why tell me you will
never give up on me and why lie to yourself that u love me when
this is what happen now? why give me hope and pull me down? I
thought i am doing everything for the benefit of you and me. Am i
wrong to show concern over you? why do you blame me for my
effort?
Maybe its me, maybe i shouldn't do so much and to adjust myself.
Since he is not appreciative of my efforts and blamed me for not
contributing of any effort at all. I guess i am too naive to
believe. To think that he is my future, he will provide the best
for me, he will be my everything.
And now even though we talked it out, after knowing he actually dun
want me to interfere in his life too much. I finally understand
that i have done too much for him. I should have adopt those
half-fucked attitude.
But the day i dun care abt him is the day i let go.. becoz i can't
simply boh chup the person i loved. So now he wants me to stay out
of his life and give him some breathing space... what should i do?
should i stay on but not to care so much for him? or should i give
him up? My mind is very vexed. I dunno what mindset i have to adopt
to treat him..
