What should i do? I m really in a dilemma.
Recently i found out that my hubby has been sort of 'CHEATING" on
me outside. Specially on Friday's nite. cuz i usually stay at hme
on fri nite as i gotto work on Sat. Hence, he went out to pubs with
his friends even though he knows he can do so on Sat taking me
along. 
Nevertheless, i trusted him so much until recently. I was really
devastated when i found out that he was on very good terms with one
of his married colleague. They chatted on the phone eveyday when i
was at work, which lasted for 30min to 1 hr. and even has multiple
sms to one & other everyday.
I found out when one fri nite he came back at 6am. That day i was
sick, throwing up & having a bad flu. However, i asked him to
take care of himself and enjoy cuz i felt that if i ask him to come
back early, its oso useless, it won't cure my illness.
I waited from 11pm to 2pm at the void deck and quicklyawent home
when 1 stranger came to approach me to be friends. I laid on the
bed and tried to sleep but i cudn't. At around 4pm, i went
downstairs again and waited till near 6am. Despite my multiple
calls and sms, he didn't answer or reply. I was so worried that
something bad might have happen to him.
I went home again to get prepared for work and the moment i stepped
out of the lift when i was going out, i saw him....drunk and I
began to question him. He merely replied that he went to pub then
makan with his colleague.
I was doubtful and tried to check his HP call details. Then i saw
him making calls to some numbers that i didn't know. I asked him y
he nv answer my calls & all he replied was his HP low batt. I
packed my clothings & decided to moved out.
He was lying on the bed restlessly and asked me not to go. I poured
out my emotions and told him off.
All these yrs, i ve been treaying him like a king. I served him
meals, pick up his laundries cuz he alwaz dump them on the floor
when he comes back. Get his socks for him, paid for his expenses
and bills. Even thou i got to work from 8.30 to 9.30pm, i alwaz
make the effort to call him & buy dinner for him as he alwaz
sleep when he came back from work.
Only now then i realised i m a fool. He didn't sleep when he came
back, he was making calls to his married colleague whom has 2
kids.
How do i find out? I managed to get his call list and sms list n
matched up all the calls they made.
Why do i do that?
Cuz after that fri incident, he promised to be better to me & i
forgave him. But 3 days later, while he was asleep, i tried
checking his HP. I knew he dun like it but i have no choice as i
dun know wat he's doing behind my back.
& i saw a MESSage that shattered the vision of mine.
It says: No matter wat's ur decision, i will always care for u. You
muz study hard and nv let urself fall ill again. I LOVE U!
I noted the number and realised it was the name of the colleague
whom he mentioned to me before cuz she was the prettiest in his
company.
That night, while he was sleeping, i packed up all my belongings
and left the house with lots of bag. I met my good friend & sat
down for a chat. She tried to console me that things might not be
as bad as i tot. That night was another sleepless one. I spent the
whole night checking out the numer of calls and sms they made and
tried to match them up one by one.
The next morning, he called me as he cudn't find me. I avoided his
calls for 1 hour. And finally on my way to work, i answered. I told
he that i will go. He was shocked as he didm't know wat was
happening. He nv know that i will have a list of the info. he kept
begging me to come backand promised that he will change. I
questioned about his colleague and he was so afraid that i might
ring her up as she has a family.
Then i told him, since u r afraid of hurting her and not me, then
let me go. I ve u but not ur heart......u ve changed. No wonder u
treated me so badly. Whenever i buy food for u at night, u r
sleeping and by the time u wake up, u complained tat the food is
cold and juz have a mouthful and go back to sleep. We have very
little conversation and he alwaz tells me he is tired.
I am so sad. I felt so foolish, thinking that he's really
tired.....on the other side, he's chatting with that woman before i
reach home. Usually, when he charge his hp, he always leave it on a
chair, now he hide it under his pillow.. sighz....
That morning when he called me, i told him that i knew everything,
he was shocked and only after much questionings, he revealed the
truth. He said that his colleague is in love with him. But only
when the night i choose to leave him, then he wakes up and realised
my importance which he nv did in the past.........He said that he
didn't touch or went out wif her at all. Merely sms and chatting on
the phone. He said that he has no feelings for her. I told him if
he has no feelings for her, then i dun find a need for them to sms
each other everyday or chat on the phone everyday for so long!
Whenever i call him, he will tell me he's busy la. Then how come
he's free to chatt with her for so long?????
I told him my heart is shattered and if he wants the kind of thrill
go ahead, i will set him free. He broke down and cried begging for
my forgiveness. Then thru the call list, i found a few numbers that
he called frequently too. I tried dialing them n found out they r
all gals!!! This time i was firm to leave him.
I wanted to stay, but i cudn't find any good reason to do so..He
dun love me anymore, our lifes has become stagnant. He resorts to
knowing other new gals at pub on Fri nights and chatting wif his
married colleague to ease his stresses at work and studies. I
understand, thats y he choose to keep me in the dark. He said that
he's afaid that i will be angry. N i told him off that if he's
afraid that i will be furious, then in the first place, he
shouldn't have done so!!
He kept denying abt the gals he befriend with and in the end, when
i threatended to call them up one by one, then he confessed. He
kept begging me not to go cuz he cannot dun ve me. But i told him
straight that he will be able to find a better one. He's juz used
to our relationshio and do not love me anymore. It's a kind of
habit to be together..Anyway being together with him, he had forced
me to be so independent and i can take care of myself.
We already ROM, juz that we have yet to hold the wedding dinner. SO
he kept saying that he will talk to his parents abt it and we will
applied for a house. I told him... what for??? Everynight, i sleep
with a GREAT PRETENDER and thought that he was really tired and
stressful... I had nv felt so foolish at all. I even gave him $$ to
go to pub, afraid that he dun have enough.... Now all i get
is.......................hurt.
