hi guys. im suffering from quite a serious problem, and i need
feedback on what i should do.
story goes like this:
since the start of this yr (im sec 3 btw), i have been sleeping in
class, slacking, not doin homework, and even skipping tests. im not
sure whether i haf the "hackcare" attitude or simply because i
think i still can make it even if i study last minute. maybe i was
simply complacent. i slept at around 2-3 plus almost everyday ( i
think i enjoyed too much the previous holiday...) and goin to
school feeling sooo sleepy that i would just collasp in
class.
midyear, i done it totally horribly. all f9s, including my english.
actually my standard of english isn't that bad. probably a high C
student. (due to my messy handwritting i had problems getting high
marks in compo, somehow), and i just had to write out of point in
that exam. i wasnt depressed or more like i did not even feel
anything. i was simply hack-care at that time.
after some long talks, arguments, i finally awaken from all these
mess. i decided that i did not want to retain. the condition to
promote was a pass in 2 subjects and english. i had to get like 60
percent for my english to pass, and as my english has always been
at the 50-60 range, i was feeling quite scared when i recieved the
paper at the end of year. finally, after all CA calculations
etc...i managed to pass the overall, at 51 percent. WHEW..
just when that happened, i failed chemistry, physics, geog and
combined humanities horribly. all around the 30+ range. almost all
the papers were quite difficult and all of them had their fair
share of failures. i was one of them, and one of the f9 failures.
the MSG (average) for some subjects was even a fail. i did put in
effort to study, i wonder if it wasn't enough, or is it because im
stupid. im quite sure i know all the facts quite well. i have a
super smart friend who does nothing but read textbook and scores in
exam. i tried doin the same but got stunned during the exam when i
couldn't do the twisted questions. i did not try doin TYS partly
because i wasn't discipline enough, i was still on my com, playing
games, playing badminton but i took effort to prepare like few days
before the exam.., thats what all my friends do...
but they passed and i failed.
i heard from teachers and my parents that an average student
studies like 3-4 hours per day. i was like OMG, i do not study on a
daily basis and only read the book the day before the exam. for
this exam, i took the effort to prepare few days earlier and i took
special effort to listen in class. but i only got a few marks
improvement from last time...
okie right now i passed my Amaths, Chinese and English. my chinese,
i did not get high enough to pull my overall grade to a pass. but
im quite sure my amaths did (at 59%...haix. lousy compared to my
other friends). the only paper which i have not got bac is emaths n
im quite sure i will pass the paper. but however. im starting to
feel as if i should retain..
im sure retaining at sec 3 sounds stupid, but sometimes i need this
extra year to prepare myselfs for the o levels. getting 30+ for so
mani subjects has crushed my confidence. unless i put in lots and
lots of effort during this EOY holiday, i will probably not make it
in my O levels. so why not just retain and take my time. but im
holding back because i will not be together with my friends. and i
will have to mix around with a new group of people.
so in conclusion, to sum up things, i have a few questions to
ask.
1) how do you improve handwritting? i tried writing neatly, but due
to the lack of time, especially papers like social studies,
geography and english..., i had to scribble my answers and try to
write as fast as i can. as there are multiple essays to do and
usually answers are required to be like 5-7 full pages in total,
(foolscap paper). how do you write neat, but at the same time fast,
any methods to train handwritting?
2) how to stop being careless? fortunately, this amaths paper was
easy, but i lost like 20+ marks due to careless mistakes. i guess.
i get penalized for opening a bracket wrongly in a simple binomial
theroem sum and the whole thing (usually 3-5 marks), gets a big fat
egg......
3) what should i do now? should i actualli consider to retain? or
promote and mug lots and lots during this long holiday..?
