My mum passed away in May this year. One month prior to her
departure, my dad lost his job as well.
I started out my new job one week after mum's death, while dad was
at home trying to get busy with household chores and getting over
the sadness. My only sister is in Ngee Ann poly, final yr.
During this period of time, I have been really patient with dad as
he cannot get over it. Daytime endure boss, customers and at night
endure dad's nonsensical 'I wanna join mum soon'. I join my dad to
do some housechores when I can.
Fast forward to August. Dad found a job as fulltime taxi driver,
its slowly healing him through time, which is a good thing. But
because of the energy I have given in to keep the family going, I
am beginning to wear out. Throughout the last few months I have
been helping him to find a job, settle outstanding loans mum had
with the banks and insurance stuffs, before he embarked on the
cabby job.
Ever since dad begun his taxi job, he is too tired to help out in
housechores. So I will have to juggle work, night studies, balance
accounts and house chores.
And my 19-yr-old sister cannot be bothered in helping out.
When she has a tutorial or lecture, she'd wake up just 1/2 hr
before the lesson starts, and sort of expects dad to fetch her to
ngee ann poly. We live in hougang. I was pissed cos this means dad
will earn less bcos of her disruption. I have reprimanded her for
this, but her nonsense never stops, though she claims that she is
trying.
I give her $400 a month for allowance. I think thats a lot. Sad
thing is she doesnt make me see that it is worthy to give her $400
for she will do nothing in the house. Her room is shitty. She
doesnt even wash her own cup after using, let alone use the
broom.
I have wanted to deduct her allowance but dad said mum in past gave
her 400, so must stick to it. He is afraid too much of nagging will
make her run away from home.
She has a bf whom I dun really respect cos he doesnt give shit
about his own schoolwork as well. But thats his life. Thing is, I
am spending time doing all the household stuffs and studies so that
she can go on dates with her bf.
I am really stupid.
I am 26 and my life is like a prison. I just hope she'd move her
butt to help out.
Irony is.. she'd join all these school activities as group leader,
help out in Yellow Ribbon project. But she failed to see that the
real prisoner is her own brother. I am trapped in this routine life
bcos no one will help.
I wanna change all that.
