just to set this straight im an ordinary guy who's 17 and
studying right now. i have developed a liking towards a girl in my
school for quite some time now but now, the question is do i have
the courage to ask her out or should i even try? is it love or
lust?
i dont know her, she's just another girl in my school that i see
almost everyday since her class is just a few beside mine. lets
call her J. nevertheless if u are curious about how she looks, i'll
describe it to u now.. she's average height, face is a little bit
chubby and has rosy cheeks but her body's slim.. mid-length black
hair with a few highlighted often tied up in a single ponytail..
she looks like a fair skinned chinese with the small eyes and all..
the way she smiles and grins attracts me. heard she is a
hairdresser too. some people say she's flat but im not liking her
because of how great her body curves is, ill elaborate on this
later. her dress sense never fails to fascinate me as i think that
she knows how to carry herself well enough and not look cheap. what
attracts me the most is that she has a demure and sweet side or her
and the flirty side too.
i said that because she has a friend whom i dont really like for
her character. ironically both their name starts with the letter J
too.. she's absoultely super flirty, not sure if she goes for
enhancement or something cos 'they' look fake to me.. although she
speaks both english and chinese, it's heavily accented in her own
way. she's the kind who loves to wiggle her butt when she walks.
what im trying to say is that this so-called friend might have
influenced her in a way to be slightly to the wild side.. im not
really comfortable with this other girl since she's a big eyesore
sometimes.
not sure if its love or lust cos ive made several critical
decisions already. i know its stupid but i have taken the effort to
make myself look good in front of her and specially trying to get
to sit close to her in lectures so she will notice me.. at the same
time get my class to do so too so that ill not be alone. it's been
three months but i still havent got the courage to talk to her. i
have a friend who's quite close to her but im not really close to
this friend.. it's the hello and bye kind of friend.. she looks
rather attractive in her own way so it's somewhat like inferiority
complex when i step up to her to talk.. cos i dont find myself that
good looking.. im an average guy. dont be mistaken, ive totally no
interest in this friend of mine, just that she's one of my
classmates during my first three months in another jc. yes if u are
wondering she is mixed blood.
i have learnt my lesson and will not tell big mouthed people about
my liking for J cos some people in my class cant keep secrets. they
have betrayed me on many occasions and now its questionable to even
regard them as 'friends'. sad to say now although i have made a
reasonable amt of friends from the start of the yr, i have yet to
discover who my best friend is.. the person who is willing to share
all sorts of problems and give a listening ear to me in times of
need. my best friend is currently studying in another jc
now..
most importantly i am 100% sure J is single as according to her
friendster, she's single and available.. she writes testis about
how she will inform her buddies when she ever gets a bf. and that
is quite recently. i believe that if i dont act fast, other guys
will get her soon cos she's very comfortable speaking and
interacting with guys from what i see, but its all friendly talk..
no feelings. as for me, im a little shy when it comes to this cos i
was from a single sex school.. but for a girl like this, im willing
to make any sacrifice just to know her better and have a chance to
see her everyday. so far, only ONE person knows about this but
sadly he isnt taking me seriously and when i consult him, its
always one word replies.. totally regretted telling him about this
but i'm almost 100% certain this guy will keep his mouth shut cos
he's a good secret keepers. things go in but never comes out.
understand that promo exam is coming and i shouldnt be dwelling on
such things at this point of time. my studies are a little screwed
up too.. possibly because i think too much. i really really really
like J a lot and if i approach her and tell her my feelings, and it
so happens she rejects me.. i will feel very sad. i want to know
her as a normal friend first and gain acceptance from her friends
as well.. im not very handsome and muscular but rather average
only.. how should i go about doing it?[/img]
