whats schezophrenic?
Try to plan before hand what you gotta do on saturday to prevent
yourself from feeling very alone. Be the one to organise an outing
with friends! e.g. cycling at pulau ubin! Have to learn to be more
independent in making yourself happy everyday, we are responsible
for our own happiness. You gotta make your own day, not others! As
friend gets older, alot will get attached le, I didnt expect my
friends would be single all the time. you have to learn to live
with it. Theres alot more to do with life than feeling
lonely.
The way you feel is so normal. You not alone in feeling this way. I
experience this kinda feeling myself too. especially when my bf
just broke off wit me, when I am alone at home alot, I will think
alot, I tend to forget to make myself happy, I am so engrossed in
my own sadness that I cant help feeling drown in it and have
depressions. Even people around me gets affected. I even wished
that I never had bf before man.
Before that when I never had bf before, my life is so happy even
when I was alone at home, I can happily read a book whole day, play
computer games, watch vcds, drawing, playing my harmonica~ Find a
hobby! this month I stay at home every saturday because I am so
broke man, even my friends also miss me le 
but no choice. Then I plan on what to do this
weekend, which is reading my favourite book! so I doesnt feel sad
on a satuday at home le. Make yourself think happy first.
