i came from a boy sch since pri till sec. i am not a very good
looking guy and short. So not like my others friends mostly all got
gf liao, execpt me when during sec.
But one day. that time i tink i was still sec4. i saw this girl in
my tutution centre which i cant take my eyes off her. To me she is
pretty and special, but my friends say is ok looking only. So
everyday my mind is full of her. Finally one day i decided to go
right up to know her and i successed. So we exchange contact. That
day i was so happy until i couldnt sleep. 
(come to tink back i tink i am abit crazy that
time)
Although i got her contact but i dare not call her because dont
know wad to tok about and also i think the 1st gal i ever like. But
the funny thing she call me the next day and talk to me through i
have nothing much to tok, but she say nevermind she will do the
toking. So from then on it seems everyday she tok to me and like we
can tok for hours and hours happily.
But when comes to dating her, i only date out her a few
times.
But happy times dont last long, after sometime i found out that she
came from a rich family and had bf already. At that time i totally
lost out, very sad and it seem like the world lost out of colour.
So i tink for nights and nights, finally i
decided to give up, because i not like bf tall, good looking, and
also not as poor as i am and she is rich gal, how can a poor guy
like me give her happliness. So i try to keep distance away from
her, dont call her, reject her call, and even when i saw her i just
say hi and walk off le. (my heart really pain when i do that) after
long time, she seldom call me le, and i also never call her le. But
that didnt stop me from thinking of her.
but after a year later, one day suddenly a call, i heard her voice
again. At that time i was kinda of happy again. She told me that
she is very sad , becoz her bf is with other gal and still
wan to be with her and she love her bf very much and they have been
together for years. So i try my best to console her but i really am
too stupid abt console ppl. But in the end she feel better when
toking to me...and say thanks to me for console her. But i still
didnt feel that i got any chance to chase her. After that she didnt
call me again le, and i also didnt want to interfere with their
relationship problems. Although i really feel like calling her, ask
her bf to get lost, and chase her. But i dont know y all my
confidence r lost out.
Then after a few years later, i met her she already got a new bf...
then i sian again, although i recently just contact her but already
not like last time we used to chat about happily liao 
...i always think if that time i really did not give up on her,
would she be my gf by now??? But what to do is Over....hai
Until today it had been 4 years i still like her, and
since then i had never go on relationship yet, i also dunno y,
maybe i still very like her or probably i lost confidence in
relationship liao or maybe i cant find someone like her
again....hai
u ppl must be thinking i am dumb, stupid and ball-less.... maybe i
am...
can u ppl give me some advices....
