Well I used to be very shy too... back in sec sch...
but i didn't have many friends... so one day before poly, i decided
to "change my personality" in a sense...
From the first day of poly, I was determined to be outgoing. when
in a group of ppl and having a chat and something comes to my mind,
I'll just say it before i could chicken out.
I was one of the most out-going ppl in my poly clubs... when
there's a newcomer in the club house I force myself to go up and
say hi.
Well in a way, you could say I was acting... I refuse to think
"what would they think of me If i crack a joke like this" "are they
judging me?" instead I just react. respond without too much
thinking... (of course when it comes to sensitive things you must
think first la... I'm refering to everyday conversations) as time
go by... it no longer is acting... it feels natural, it is
natural...
you can ask any poly mate of mine, they'll tell you " oh Smudgey
ah... wa that girl damn daring ah!!"
you can change your habit.
it's just a matter of choosing to speak up. do not let the "little
voice" in your head say " shh... don't let them notice me!!!"
