Just found out that the girl I deem perfect to me,is in a
relationship.
Anyone out there felt the same as me?Blood rushing
throughout,feeling very jerky and kept on bitting my nails?
Im not talking logically now.I have so many thoughts running thru
my mind..all about how that guy will treat her.
Will he cheat on her?
Will he treat her well?
Will he force her to bed with him?
Im somewhat leaning towards the marriage b4 sex thinking..the
thought of my perfect girl doin with another guy unwillingly or
tricked into, is just horrible,i cant find any words to describe my
feelings.
I guess all these thinkings are normal right...Im just sharing what
im goin thru right now in e middle of e night all alone.
Maybe I shouldnt have logged in friendster and click on her
contact..
I should have go after her earlier on.
I shouldnt be that gutless to do what I always wanted to. 
Fark,i can really feel the ache from my heart..the feeling is
sour.
