it could be some fetish...and this is not the best place to
solicit for advise as it is a matter of personal choice and
preference. it would even seem condescending to say this is
right/wrong, black or white. unless you are here to reinforce
certain preconceptions others have about cross dressers. these
decisions, as with many other decisions; e.g. taking drugs,
shoplifting, having sex, slap a stranger, or those things that
allure one with danger yet excitement, are not so much about a
'dare' to take the first step to do something, and subsequently,
because of that decision, to determine your ultimate choice. it is
a more complicated process and the self-doubt and evaluation stages
are continuous. So, you could positively reinforce such behaviour
by dressing up and hanging around bugis street and you get all the
admiration you wished. Or to negatively 'shame' yourself by doing
so in a different venue where you know you know you would likely be
humiliated/beaten up. then again, these external experiments may
not present the best solutions to suppress your internal desires.
so, you are just worried about how you present yourself to society
and the community, then you should weigh your priorities. but who
knows, time changes, adn with the setting up of the IR, the
garbement may one day set up some simon cabaret and their 1-stop
shopping & sexual reassignment/modification medical HQ here to
rival bangkok and be the best in batam and jb.
