Yes your subconscious is telling you something;
the deep-seated inferiority that is affecting your self esteem and
in turn, all your future BGRs. This is probably the way you will
react in real life, not in exact situations, but in similar
mindset, setting and scenario.
The key character to this is a NORMAL girl; you can't even find the
confidence to pursue a seemingly NORMAL girl in your dreams, that's
what lacking in your life, the absence of initiative, action, pride
and confidence to work for what you probably believe in real life
and to give up without much concrete reason/fighting spirit for it.
Cheers
