My ex broke up with me 4 months ago. During that period it was
really the lowest point of my life. I was practically not
interested in anything except liquor and cigarette, drinking and
smoking almost everyday.
I love her alot, but yet she had decided to end it all. It took me
a lot of efforts to show her that I truly love her but no use at
all. She still decided to end it. She wanted to remain as friends
but I didnt want to. I don't want to be reminded of the past few
months that I had gone thru. It is really very torturing.
It also took me a lot of effort to get over this r/s and to start
everything afresh. It is really tough, and as and when memories
just come and I miss her again..
She did sms and call me a few times. But I didn't just want to
remain as friends, it's just too torturing for me. Now she has
another guy.
Yet today, I saw her, actually I didn't want to call her. But I saw
her at the clinic near her office. My heart soften, and I know deep
within myself that I still love and care for her a lot. I am very
worried as why is she seeing a doctor. So I called her and talked
to her for a while, she really looked very pale and she said she
was not feeling well for the past few days.
How I wished I could be right there by her side to take care of her
right now, but seems not possible. So I wished her well and asked
her to take care of herself.
I thought I had let go of this r/s, let go of her, but I was very
wrong. I realise that I still love her a lot and that I still care
for her alot.......
