He is trying to teach you a lesson in life. If you have the
opportunity to find something at that point, seize it. In the
brokering business, theres many gains and losses; those that change
lives for the better or destroy them overnight. It is a fickle
business and you usually see most of those who amassed a big
windfall to splurge them all away. In this kind of place, one sees
that money’s power is second to none. And many just hate the way
that money, being an intangible, can wield such misery to humankind
and by spending that money, it mitigates that misery as it brings
perceived power back to the individual and perhaps also by
spreading that misery to others in the hope that one is not alone
and will feel better. So, this money-misery trap, lubricated by
greed, goes on and on and the same principle applies for the
IR/gambling in casinos debate where gamblers try to wage the money
power struggle in the hope of finding answers all day. And about
your folks being a broken record, every individual contemplates
about where their goals in life are heading, what they have wanted
to achieve, what were the things they did wrong, and whether they
were realized or wasted dreams, people at different stages like
those in mid-life are still fuzzy, unless you are some enlightened
saint or on the death row. Whatever achievements must eventually be
abated by self-contentment. For you, you look more towards hope and
tomorrow. Logic applies naturally in your analysis of the world.
For the older folks, they cannot do much more, illogics serve as a
deveil’s advocate, indeliberateness to buy time, and they can only
use the past as a benchmark of things to come. Besides, it is also
his ways of expressing fears and feelings about the dis-attachments
that are a result of your growing up and losing you one day. So,
there are always correlation in all these that we see in different
people at different ages. The wierd idiosyncracies you find in many
old couples quarreling or scolding each other everyday actually
encourage and reinforce their togetherness to walk the remaining
journey they themselves are uncertain about.
