I waited for more than 1 year...and all those while, I had to
pretend to be his best fren, be there for him when he needs me,
help him pursue other gals, etc.
I had thought he was the one for me. Cos we can talk about anything
and everything under the sun, like the same songs, and even laugh
at the same joke. More than once people thought we were a couple,
but I always denied it because I know he likes other girls...he
never looks at me as anyone more than a fren.
and that is a very torturous feeling. when you love someone enough
to put his happiness before your own, and when you feel like he is
just taking you for granted, I believe this feeling can only be
felt truly by someone who has experienced it before.
In the end, I just gave up waiting. Not because I don't love him
anymore, in fact, I think he will always have a place in my heart.
Now I think I am in love with another guy who has treated me like a
princess, but the scar from that experience will always remain
there. We continue to be close fren, but I think these few days
when we spend some time together again, there was once I felt so
much pain that I cried a bit. He never saw my tears of
course...
There is always a price to pay for waiting. And for me, it is a big
one, because now I can never really love anyone the same deep way
again. I am too afraid to.
i.c.y
