Hi Leo Gal,
I can sympathize with ur situation. Having a spice in ur life can
be exciting. However, not everything exciting or feels good is
morally right. So you have to control urself and do what is right
instead of doing what is exciting but wrong.
If u can follow the straight narrow boring path of righteousness,
instead of the easier wide path of excitement and spice, then u
should be alright. It might not be easy initially, it might be
boring, it might be dull, but ultimately, this is what u want to
do. Because if u dont, ur conscience bothers you, and you know deep
down that you are actually unhappy and living a shallow life.
For now, stay away from your lover. Your lover is obviously a jerk.
He knows you are married but still take advantage of you. Get
another job. He is abusing his position as your boss to exert his
stature and authority and take advantage of you. Tell ur lover u
want to break off for good. Quickly resign and find another job. If
u cannot find a good job, take a temp job first and continue
looking for another job while doing the temp job. Cut off all
contacts as soon as possible. Dont accept his calls, etc.
My other advice is, never ever confess to ur hubby. Never. Even if
he forgives u, he will be deeply hurt and may never recover for the
rest of his life. Just keep quiet and carry this secret with u till
the grave. That is the best for everybody.
I wish u all the best.
