continue from where I've stopped.
The guy X I knew
from my workplace is a someone whom I've always wanted someone who
care for u alot won't let you down. Someone whom will always be
there for you when u need. We chatted on the phone meet up for
movies, I told him about the things that happened to me and
A. he will cheer me up
telling me that its not over at all. all i have to do is stand up
and continue.
I listened to him and then we ended up being together. He's great
so great that I'm willing to give up anything for him.
But 1 day when we were outside shopping I came across A when X is in the toilet.
A told me 1 thing,
he said ' I won't let you 2 get together so easily, I'll break you
2 up in no time.'
I didn't tell X about it cos I'm scared he'll be angry but he found
about it after that.
Yes i admit that i did answered A'S call but all i wanted to
do is to ask him to give up no matter wat we can't be together. But
then X mistaken
that i still cannot forget about A but the thing is I already
forget about him. I just wanna A not to call anymore , to do
anything to harm the relationship between me and X.
Then our relationship very shaky after that, will tend to quarrel
even over the smallest thing. A tried all means to get
between us by calling me, talking to me, smsing me and will even
wait for me outside my school.
I tried avoiding from A but he really had his means to find me. No
matter how i hide he still be able to find me.
Then things seemed to get bettEr when X forgives me and we return to
normal. He dotes me alot buys me things, lots of things. Everytime
there for me. Loves me alot alot and I love him too. I loved him
till the extend that no 1 can.
But all happened again when we're about to be together for almost 1
yr somethings happen. I was in school having my in school project
attachment then lecturer scolding then A keep calling. I so angry cos
no reason lecturer came in scolding shouting. so noisy then
somemore i so moody. then i no think so much, I sms to A telling him wat he wan keep
calling for wat, but he no reply anything.
In the evening X
asked for my hp to spot check and he saw the sms. he very angry and
then we broke off. cos he said he can't trust me anymore he dun
feel secure with me at all. like anytime will do things to hurt him
lor. but the fact is i didn't i just dun want A to call or wat lor but why
can X think about
it? I tried explaining but he dun wan to listen to any reasons. Wat
to do?
Why can't he think of all the happy moments we've had instead of
the unhappy things?
I loved him alot lor too much to bear to leave him. These few weeks
I've been struggling not to be too sad in front of my frens I dun
wan them to worry about me. But I can't do it anymore, I've bottled
it all up too deep until I cannot stand it anymore. I love him but
why must he do this to me? Why can't he love me like b4 forget
about all the unhappiness and think about the future and not the
past?
