Lets tackle each problem one at a time okay?
1) Your father not paying you alimony
This is actually quite common in Singapore. What i suggest is that
you go to contact The Legal Aid Bureau
and give them a call. It should definately Not cost as much as
1.2k(however did it get so high?), they're a government aided
agency i believe.
2) You surviving on $50. Not having enough
money
The impulse of buying coloured pens, etc, should have grown out of
you by now. I realise a good way for me to not buy things is to be
practical, especially in your situation, just look at the thing you
want to buy, ask yourself this, do you need it? Look at it and
imagine not having it 7 days later, would it make a difference in
your life? Or would it be better to save that $3 for another
day?
3) Part time Job.
You mentioned having a part time job that's paying very little.
Please do not tell me you're working at a fast food restaurant @
the rate of $3.40 an hour or something. If you feel up to it, take
up some tuition jobs. They pay much better than them. In fact, i
have quite a few friends who survive by teaching 2-3 kids a month,
and not having take any money from their parents at all.
If you're interested, drop me a pm and where you're living at, i'll
try my best to help.
Its okay to cry and feel weak sometimes, but it would be better, if
you tell yourself you're going to do something about it, than to
just feel sad.
Come on Girl, you can do it.