Be depressed all you want, but the point is that you
must learn from your mistake, and not commit it
again.
You complain about late ORD because you can't ORD with your
friends, and you feel left out. But does the late ORD say that you
are not allowed to talk to your friends? Not allowed to go out with
them? No, RIGHT? Besides, why are you so sure that you won't make
BETTER friends when you're in the army?
The only thing that is stopping you is YOURSELF. You are uncertain
about the future because you do not have a goal in life! Ask
yourself, what do you REALLY want to achieve in life? Make that as
your goal, and work hard towards it! If you have a goal, you will
not be lost. Nor will you be uncertain.